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Title: We are of two minds on the subject

Author: Raven_Mcbain

Rating: 13+
Show: M*A*S*H

Pairing: Trapper/Hawkeye, John/Louise

Characters: John (Trapper) McIntyre, Hawkeye  

Content Warning: slash, angst, strange writing style
Spoilers: metions welcome to Korea 

Disclaimer: M*A*S*H ended two years before my older brother was born so no I don't own it. Also if you sue you will get an unfinished novel and 400 ducks. 
Summary/authors notes: Three and a half years after he left Korea, Hawkeye and the facade of Trapper behind, John sees Hawkeye across a room and wonders. Can be read as a follow-up fic to "Can't Think About Goodbye"


John Francis Xavier McIntyre (or the man who had once been Trapper) couldn't believe his bad luck (while John considered it bad Trapper would have been doing cartwheels celebrating his good fortune; but Trapper was gone.) Of all the people to be here, of all the people to walk out of the past without warning, it had to be Hawkeye Pierce (maibe it was Ben now, maibe Hawkeye had been left in the place of death John didn't know, didn't want to know.)  He had been attending a medical conferance, just to get out of the house for awhile (it still felt like it wasn't real, John the loving father and husband felt like a mask, like the mask had been the real one) and bam, there he was, right there in the lobby, Trappers lover (not John's, John had never met him, didn't want to it hadn't been real.) He looked different far older then when he had left for R&R (far older then when John had robed Trapper of godbye, tucking him away the moment he was no longer needed) life had not been kind to this man, this man who had loved too much and he looked shrunken not the man that John had known (TRAPPER! NOT the man that TRAPPER had known.) Briefly he thought about going over but he decided aginst it, why tear open wounds that had long since closed, John had finally begun to rebuild his life and he hoped that Hawkeye (or Ben) would do the same. However he couldn't help watching him.